Well, its been a long time since I have been on here and updated... I feel bad about that... since like seems to be passing me by quickly. I am no longer suprised by people. really nothing suprises me anymore. I just like and try not think about the past and the pains of what used to be. there is a line from a country song that goes... ""Its hard loving a man that's got a gypsy soul..." and I can't get over how true that line is.

When I first met him, he told me he was moving away... that didn't pan out... so now he has decided to move agian.. much further than he was going to and there is one line that he told me that I can't believe I believed "I'm Not ready for a relationship"... and then there is the fact that he uses that line a LOT... everytime he wants something.

I guess I will continue to wait. That seems to be my theme as of late. I am waiting for the right time, I am waiting for my career, I am waiting for the love of my life, and I am waiting for sanity.

I just keep waiting. And wondering, and waiting somemore. I am just tired of waiting.
~CG